Emo Time

It is now the emo time again~
I realise that no matter how good is a life of a person
He still need to have time to emo~

Emo without reason~
I think this is what human should have~

I start to envy others
Their life is much more happier than mine
Although I am satisfy with my current life
But they make me feel like I want to have a life like them too~

They have their dream
and they can work on it
I have no dream
All my dream was set by others
I don't know what I really want
I hate this type of me~
Don't know everythings~
Don't know about what I like~
I want to change~
I said it since I am junior one~
But now~
I am still the same~

What can I do for that?

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我是一个容易失去安全感的人
任何的小事都会让我联想到这个那个的
我需要别人做任何事都对我有所交代
否则我会十分的犹豫、胡乱猜想~
感觉像失去了什么重要的东西似的
我就是这样~
那就是我~
我像改变~
但这已经被我习惯成一种瘾了~
真的很难很难改变~
其实我不想~
但始终还是无法改变~~~ =(

Fail~~~

今天补考ＭＡ　ｍｉｄｔｅｒｍ
考得超兰的～
还只是第一次耶～
看来是不及格了～～～

因为那天生病
所以要补考
没想到补考的前两天
我又再生病了～
才短短的一个星期多
我的身体变落了好多好多
不知道要到什么时候
才能完全的康复过来

这个星期太多的东西要做
ＢＬ　ｐｒｅｓｅｎｔａｔｉｏｎ
ＭＡ　ｔｅｓｔ
ＰＭ　ｔｅｓｔ
ＭＡ　ａｓｓｉｇｎｍｅｎｔ
等等～
又在这繁忙的一个星期里生病了
真的很辛苦

ＭＡ　考得不理想
心理的确很不舒服
感觉坚持不下去了
最近的家强真的很颓废

要把考不好ＭＡ归因为生病
听起来有点关系
但实际上是自己准备的不足
抄功课理解不完问题的症结
才是最主要的原因吧～

哎～～～
失败～
心情糟透了
我何时才能康复？
真希望明天的我是一个健康的我～

tired

Finally a lot of assignment has been settle
now left the QM assignment
but it was not a hard assignment
what need to do now is busy for Mid-term
hope can score some marks in Mid-term
so that final exam won't be so stress

Final exam is coming soon
this time I din't aim any target
what I want is only to pass every subject
everyone maybe think that it is easy for me
but what can I tell is only I feel stress to pass it

the ways that teacher teach
is totally different from high school and foundation
at the beginning of the semester
I can't absorb anythings from every lecture
but luckily I got take 3 month foundation class
It helped me a lot on this sem...

next monday is micro mid-term
Im worry about it
because I din't learn it before
and din't have any basic on this subject
keep thinking can I pass it ?
the another subject is management
It needs a lot of time to study it
but I didn't have time to touch it
due to so many assignment
both come together
make me can't concentrate
on study and also doing assignment

after the mid-term test
it is English presentation
Im excited on it
but this time
the topic is not easy to present well
it is hard for me
to think about
how to make the presentation fun and interesting
but until now
I have no idea...
I need ideas right now

I more expected to finish sem 1 faster
and hope that I can change tutorial group next sem
this tutorial group didn't have good study environment
study with them make me feels stressful
I hope everythings can faster go to the end

无聊

又是一个无聊的假期
这世界就是爱捉弄人
偏偏到了这个时候
网路才出现问题
还真的无奈
害得我不知道要做什么
选择了睡觉
却越睡越累
伟豪还说要打球
现在却人间蒸发了= =lll

找人聊天
大家却都在忙各自的
考试、赶报告
我也了解这点
所以只能无所事事的等待开学

新学期会是怎样的
会有什么新面孔
还真的有点怕怕
但人生就是这样的
身边的人都会不停的再换
要早一个永远的朋友
说是容易
但有多少人会遇到呢？
对于朋友
我不在乎长久
最重要的是
有你们陪伴我度过人生的一小部分
那已经很足够了

人心险恶
无可否认
但我依然相信
只要你真心的对别人
别人就会真心的对你
基础班就验证了这点
有心人会更难的接近你
因为你已受到保护

以前
我因它而努力
现在
我却觉得它已经不再重要了
因为再多的它
只会酿成更多的它
根本改变不了什么
只会越加越深
就如Naruto里的情节

这三个月里
让我看到了我是谁
我需要改变的是什么
虽然我不知道自己为什么而活
但我会好好的活下每一天
总有一天
他们会用不同的眼光
忏悔的眼光来看我的
做了什么事
自己心知肚明

也因如此
我不再努力的争取高分
只在乎于自己学到了什么
要如何改变自己
有句话
改变别人不如先改变自己
对我来说很管用
人因相同而存在这个世界上
人因不同而让这个世界增添色彩
当别人不努力了
你需要更加的努力
努力追求自己
让这个世界更有意义

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zZz^^zZz
刚才那些问题
我自己也不清楚
也一直犹豫了很久
徘徊不定
但始终还是找不到答案
当时我因无心的举动
而失去了
现在我想拥有
却不是那么的简单的
这也许是命运的安排
或许我应该从新开始
把旧的都忘了
那或许会活得更快乐
该到的时候总会到的
加油~~~z^^z!!!
别想太多~~~

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挺久没用中文打了
一个字：爽 ！！！
I hate ENGLISH, But I need to Love it always!