Emo Time

It is now the emo time again~
I realise that no matter how good is a life of a person
He still need to have time to emo~

Emo without reason~
I think this is what human should have~

I start to envy others
Their life is much more happier than mine
Although I am satisfy with my current life
But they make me feel like I want to have a life like them too~

They have their dream
and they can work on it
I have no dream
All my dream was set by others
I don't know what I really want
I hate this type of me~
Don't know everythings~
Don't know about what I like~
I want to change~
I said it since I am junior one~
But now~
I am still the same~

What can I do for that?

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我是一个容易失去安全感的人
任何的小事都会让我联想到这个那个的
我需要别人做任何事都对我有所交代
否则我会十分的犹豫、胡乱猜想~
感觉像失去了什么重要的东西似的
我就是这样~
那就是我~
我像改变~
但这已经被我习惯成一种瘾了~
真的很难很难改变~
其实我不想~
但始终还是无法改变~~~ =(

梦

不知到为什么会发梦

可能是因为最近的压力大

发的梦都没有一件是好事

刚刚的梦

让我觉得我自己很没用哦

把太多太多的东西

都焖在心里了

有太多太多的东西

我不敢去尝试

有很多很多的时候

因为我的安静与羞怩而伤害了我身边的人

还有。。。

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人家说在梦里出现

是因为那个人在想你

真有其事 o.0?

Recently~

This, is my study group.
The one besides me, is our new members.
Although I doesn't like this group as I like it last sem,
but I still like it.
Compare to others, it is much better.
Because everyone is busy this sem,
so can't be like last sem again~
but I wish it could.

This is da jie~

this sem we seldom see her...

because she participate a modeling class

she is much hardworking than last sem

and feel sorry to her

because I accepted her group member to join my group

caused she need to join other people~

This is da ge~

most 'powerful' in our boy gangs in class...

he did changed compare to last two sem...

now he more 'know to be people'...

but still a person that you should cautious...

won't simply accept what he gave...

because he require in return for somethings else...

maybe for him this is fair...

but for me... don't help a person because you require for return...

Anyway~

a lot things has changed compare to last time.

the war between them as stopped.

We no need become middle man again...

I enjoy T4 being lunch together everyday...
When I feel don't happy with them,

I will always remind myself,

I am here to study,

not for here to hate people...

This sem,

I feel that all my classmates has become intelligent.

Especially Du Hong.

While myself was the only one to become stupid.

I feel stress for these...

but I think I am ok with it =)

I am appreciate with it~

We need to learn how to give up sometimes~ =D

I will be back

This sem is not a tough sem
But it is tough for me
everything is under my expectation
the luck not always with me

But I want to tell myself
I can be good
even without luck
even I am the lonely one
I can fight along with myself
I don't need depends on anyone

Maybe I need to fall until the bottom
but I won't let it be
I will safe it before land to the deep
I will try to stop myself from that

I can
Must trust myself =)

没有用

最近的我真的很没有用
做什么事情都做不好
简直就是人生中最低潮的一次
从来没有是过感到那么挫折
什么事情都办不好

我很胆小
我没有勇气去面对
只懂得担心失去
不懂得解决

我那种坚持的动力
已经完全消失了
我撑不下去了

天啊~救救我吧~~~